I have my first test of the semester tomorrow at 10:30 AM, but instead of reading more about ventilation-perfusion mismatch (which is actually particularly interesting, does that raise me to even more of a nerd status? probably), I'm doing anything BUT going back to my notes and reading them.
Instead, I'm trying to figure out why I'm so anxious and unable to sit still. I am even listening to a Ludovico Einaudi radio station on Pandora (internet radio). It's all piano - song titles like "Heartsong," "The Thinker," and "Capture the Wind" are supposed to lull me into some genius Motzart trance where I absorb everything I'm studying and impress even myself with my test score. Ha. At least I tried, right?
I have no idea why I can't sit still. I'm not anxious because of poor oxygenation (see, I have studied a bit), but I'm just figity beyond all reason and understanding. I have a lot on my mind, sure, but why does it all have to come to the forefront of my thinking at this very moment? In my time of need-to-read-about-acute-respiratory-distress-syndrome???
I don't think I have ever included so many question marks in a blog, but that's what I feel is hanving over my head...a big question mark. It's neon, and flashing a number of different options - all of which being things that need no decision tonight.
::sigh::
Well, back to hitting the books. The song title now: "Norwegian Wood." Will it help me absorb something pertinent to critical care nursing? I sure hope so. By the Grace of God, I sure hope so.
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